I have been out of sorts of late. The kids are settled into school and I am without focus. I have been mulling over the idea of substitute teaching and have even gone so far as to get fingerprinted and gather paperwork. Kind of reminds me of the days when we were paper chasing for our adoptions. I have also been thinking about creative endeavors and things I'd like to pursue and accomplish.
The problem with both of these ideas is that I am only thinking about them instead of doing them. Feeling in a rut and needing some oomph, a jump start or a good kick in the pants will do too, haha. One thing that hasn't been bothering me at all is the change in weather. We've had cooler temps with blue skies and lots of sunshine and I love it.
Sooo, I ventured out with both of my cameras and took a good long walk around the lake near our house. I walked briskly and meandered. That doesn't necessarily sound possible but it is, let me assure you! Walking at a sharp pace and feeling the breeze against my face while taking my time when the beauty all around me caught my eye was heavenly. It felt a bit strange to be by myself for almost the entire time and not encounter many people along the path. I suppose it felt kind of strange too because it is the path I usually walk or bike ride with my kids and I miss them.
Once I got used to the quiet and only the sound of the birds and the wind to fill my ears, I started feeling a bit refreshed without a care in the world. And while not a care in the world is far from reality, it really felt like it, for a good 45 minutes anyway. I snapped pictures and felt a little pep in my step.
A walk and a change of scenery can do a world of good, even if it's just under a two mile walk around the lake. It awakens the senses and clears the brain. I found myself being observant of things around me as if it were the first time seeing the landscape. And though I've walked this path many, many times, each day is different. Flowers bloom and die, birds visit and leave the lake, the fields change colors and leaves fall and swirl around. Or maybe it is my perspective that is different as well.
That bird there above was sitting on the tips of those prairie grass blooms and swayed back and forth with the wind. I was certain she would fall or fly off but she hung on and just sat there looking out over the fields with those gorgeous clouds and that sky as her back drop. And I found that nest there to be a little bittersweet. Although it was beautiful, it reminded me that my babes were at school and not home in the nest and that these birds too were gone for the season and change was coming. Sounds a bit melodramatic I'm sure but that's where my mind went. And those flowers blowing in the wind against the blue grey from the lake were so vivid and bright and made me incredibly happy.
While taking that walk didn't entirely revitalize me, I found that getting out when all I really wanted to do was hide away was just the push I needed. I returned home with an improved outlook and man, did I need it.
May you step outside of yourself today and be all the better for it :)
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